Matthew Stephen Hyder's Poems
Matthew discovered New Trials in the spring of 2019 and when he joined our Facebook group in April he shared his detailed thoughts of the chapters with us. During his journey he was inspired to write four poems.
The Silent Abyss
Sometimes it's better to obtain loss,
than to achieve any gain,
when everything seems to hurt you,
and give you nothing but pain.
Wandering like a ghost,
listening to the rain,
I wonder what matters most,
as I try to stay sane.
Or does anything matter at all?
I just want to be left alone.
Curled up in a ball on my bed,
I feel apalled at what swims in our heads.
So I sit here in the silent abyss.
What makes others lonely,
I find to be pure bliss.
(Mizuki Kai or Li Syaoran)
(June 20th, 2019)
than to achieve any gain,
when everything seems to hurt you,
and give you nothing but pain.
Wandering like a ghost,
listening to the rain,
I wonder what matters most,
as I try to stay sane.
Or does anything matter at all?
I just want to be left alone.
Curled up in a ball on my bed,
I feel apalled at what swims in our heads.
So I sit here in the silent abyss.
What makes others lonely,
I find to be pure bliss.
(Mizuki Kai or Li Syaoran)
(June 20th, 2019)
Haunted by the Phantom
I am trapped by a spider's web,
my own emotions have been snared.
I have fallen into the darkness,
by an ink black despair.
"Save me! Save me!", I cry out in pain,
where is my hero Sakura,
when I'm about to go insane.
If no one is around to help,
then I'll try not to complain.
I'll tough it out, not even making a yelp.
Besides, how could I even explain?
So I won't throw a tantrum,
when the heroes are with me down low.
I'm sorry, I still haven't escaped The Phantom...
But I thought you should know.
(Tomoyo & The Phantom)
(June 24, 2019)
my own emotions have been snared.
I have fallen into the darkness,
by an ink black despair.
"Save me! Save me!", I cry out in pain,
where is my hero Sakura,
when I'm about to go insane.
If no one is around to help,
then I'll try not to complain.
I'll tough it out, not even making a yelp.
Besides, how could I even explain?
So I won't throw a tantrum,
when the heroes are with me down low.
I'm sorry, I still haven't escaped The Phantom...
But I thought you should know.
(Tomoyo & The Phantom)
(June 24, 2019)
The Outcast
You better bring a coat,
If you plan to ride the ferryman's boat.
Why is that I want to die,
Except when I don't?
Standing in the rain,
Heaven's shower masks my pain.
Do they pity me and am I spared?
Or am I a demon, cast in despair?
I lurk in the shadows,
And I feel no guilt or shame.
I shout to the sky,
"It's not me! The world is to blame!",
Or so I claim,
With plans of revenge,
As the world becomes my game.
This is how I cope,
I'm sorry I'm not the pope.
What makes you such a saint?
I can see through your masked taint,
As the world becomes your canvas,
Falsely covered in paint.
I will tear this lying world asunder,
You better watch out,
It's time for thunder.
(Mizuki Kai or Chang Eron)
(July 22, 2019)
If you plan to ride the ferryman's boat.
Why is that I want to die,
Except when I don't?
Standing in the rain,
Heaven's shower masks my pain.
Do they pity me and am I spared?
Or am I a demon, cast in despair?
I lurk in the shadows,
And I feel no guilt or shame.
I shout to the sky,
"It's not me! The world is to blame!",
Or so I claim,
With plans of revenge,
As the world becomes my game.
This is how I cope,
I'm sorry I'm not the pope.
What makes you such a saint?
I can see through your masked taint,
As the world becomes your canvas,
Falsely covered in paint.
I will tear this lying world asunder,
You better watch out,
It's time for thunder.
(Mizuki Kai or Chang Eron)
(July 22, 2019)
Clow Reed's Legacy
There once was a man named Clow Reed,
He was an interesting man indeed!
But despite all of his success,
He was always half-depressed,
As he had to reap his own seeds.
Alas, what will be the fruits of his labor?
Was there anything to be savored?
Ah, "But my lord!", I say, "Do not distress!",
"You are the greatest magician of the East and West!",
"For "Everything will definitely be alright",
"As long as you believe in your little Card Mistress",
"With all of your brilliant platinum might,
And the raging inferno of a sun that's always alight,
Even in the darkest eclipse of a day like night."
(Clow Reed & The Riddle)
(July 31, 2019)
He was an interesting man indeed!
But despite all of his success,
He was always half-depressed,
As he had to reap his own seeds.
Alas, what will be the fruits of his labor?
Was there anything to be savored?
Ah, "But my lord!", I say, "Do not distress!",
"You are the greatest magician of the East and West!",
"For "Everything will definitely be alright",
"As long as you believe in your little Card Mistress",
"With all of your brilliant platinum might,
And the raging inferno of a sun that's always alight,
Even in the darkest eclipse of a day like night."
(Clow Reed & The Riddle)
(July 31, 2019)
Epic Rap Battle: Kai vs Syaoran
Kai
"Yo, my name is Kai!
I'm a pretty fly guy!
I can get straight A's,
And I don't even try!
(Syaoran: Pft, yeah you don't.)
(Kai: Shut up you! Wait your turn!)"
I got 15 gold medals in archery,
I was raised with debauchery!
My money is gargantuan,
And my family lives in a mansion!"
Syaoran Li
"Yo, my name is Syaoran,
and I'm the head of the Lis!
That makes me the bee's knees!
You don't think I can climb a tree?
Pft, that $@#!'s a breeze!
And that tiny little shack made of sticks,
You call that a house?
I can knock it down with a thundering kick,
You should be wearing a blouse!
My patron animal is a dragon!
So why don't head back to the shire, Bilbo Baggins!"
Kai
"Oh, you think you have it so rough,
But I'll show you what it means to be tough.
I thought my dad died, and in a hospital my mom lied, then I went into the woods before I joined the hood!
Took a pit stop, to see my sister, but the house got burned down, and I found out she was living with another mister!"
Syaoran
"Yeah, yeah, you got that all back now though,
While my clan is in debt and low on dough.
They killed my dog, and sent me to prison,
But now I got Touya's hog, to show off to my girlfriend, so I'm no longer @#$!in'.
That's not even getting into the fact,
That my cousin fried my brains,
And I still kept all my tact,
And didn't go insane.
I'm in a tug of war of war,
From all different sides,
Was forced to train at 3,
So one day I'll turn the tides."
Kai
"My, oh my,
that's some pretty good rapping,
I don't even lie,
I'm about to start clapping.
I concede defeat for now,
You're definitely my soul brother,
It seems you were raised well,
One day we should do another."
(October 2nd, 2019)
"Yo, my name is Kai!
I'm a pretty fly guy!
I can get straight A's,
And I don't even try!
(Syaoran: Pft, yeah you don't.)
(Kai: Shut up you! Wait your turn!)"
I got 15 gold medals in archery,
I was raised with debauchery!
My money is gargantuan,
And my family lives in a mansion!"
Syaoran Li
"Yo, my name is Syaoran,
and I'm the head of the Lis!
That makes me the bee's knees!
You don't think I can climb a tree?
Pft, that $@#!'s a breeze!
And that tiny little shack made of sticks,
You call that a house?
I can knock it down with a thundering kick,
You should be wearing a blouse!
My patron animal is a dragon!
So why don't head back to the shire, Bilbo Baggins!"
Kai
"Oh, you think you have it so rough,
But I'll show you what it means to be tough.
I thought my dad died, and in a hospital my mom lied, then I went into the woods before I joined the hood!
Took a pit stop, to see my sister, but the house got burned down, and I found out she was living with another mister!"
Syaoran
"Yeah, yeah, you got that all back now though,
While my clan is in debt and low on dough.
They killed my dog, and sent me to prison,
But now I got Touya's hog, to show off to my girlfriend, so I'm no longer @#$!in'.
That's not even getting into the fact,
That my cousin fried my brains,
And I still kept all my tact,
And didn't go insane.
I'm in a tug of war of war,
From all different sides,
Was forced to train at 3,
So one day I'll turn the tides."
Kai
"My, oh my,
that's some pretty good rapping,
I don't even lie,
I'm about to start clapping.
I concede defeat for now,
You're definitely my soul brother,
It seems you were raised well,
One day we should do another."
(October 2nd, 2019)
Dark Poem
In my head I plot my sweet revenge,
On a world that casts me astray.
So my worries can be binged,
And feel like waking up day by day.
They call me a freak,
Because I don't talk much.
So I talk even less and the world goes bleak.
The irony is not lost on me during lunch.
"Why are you so morbid?",
the people around me say.
"You should be more open,
and not keep people at bay."
But their the ones who judge for so little,
And lie about being friends.
They keep it all bottled inside,
Until they burst and their problems meddle.
So I think about things that should be forbid,
As I live a different life from they.
In my shoes, would they do as I did?
If not, maybe I'm just a fay.
(Jinyu)
(October 3rd, 2019)
On a world that casts me astray.
So my worries can be binged,
And feel like waking up day by day.
They call me a freak,
Because I don't talk much.
So I talk even less and the world goes bleak.
The irony is not lost on me during lunch.
"Why are you so morbid?",
the people around me say.
"You should be more open,
and not keep people at bay."
But their the ones who judge for so little,
And lie about being friends.
They keep it all bottled inside,
Until they burst and their problems meddle.
So I think about things that should be forbid,
As I live a different life from they.
In my shoes, would they do as I did?
If not, maybe I'm just a fay.
(Jinyu)
(October 3rd, 2019)